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i cut my hair

my long lovely hair
i dont miss it
i took off 9 in
i am so thin! I have lost weight!
;)
i love my new short hair
it makes me look older

itch to scratch

i like to run away
why deal with problems when location will literally fix it?
so i thought I would try
different school, different scenery, different people, different options
the enchantment of the unknown
then I talked to my mom
really the itch I want to scratch wont come from switching high schools
it will come in college
but its only September
so
solution
less school and more work
drop three classes
possibly four
do one online
work more
get another job
really prepare for college
i hope this works because now i want it

and now i am afraid it will work

my homework

I wrote this at 11:30. I will now write all responses at 11:30 because I am quite proud of this. So much voice. Because it was 11:30 and i didn't want to write this. The Wasteland is fascinating. 

Modernism Techniques for ‘The Wasteland’

Though ‘The Wasteland’ is packed with literary techniques, it especially highlights the modernists. The allusions used by Eliot are impactful, not only because of what they are referring to but that there are so many and so diverse. In lines 395 to 422 he refers to a Hindu parable and then has a Bible reference in lines 309 to 311 and then goes straight into Greek mythology.   The effect of this is that he obviously makes himself sound super well-read but it goes along with one of the themes of the Wasteland- that life is nonexistent and things that are supposed to bring life don’t.  The amount of original lines in the Wasteland are outweighed by those talking about or quoting other works- a poem that is supposed to be a collection of ones finest thoughts are nothing but recycling of others old, used and worn ones.

The imagery in this poem is starkly different from that of the romantics in that the romantics used imagery to paint a beautiful picture using beautiful words comparing things to the more beautiful parts of nature. Eliot uses imagery to paint a sexual and graphic picture of life drawing on the war and disillusionment with technology and God. The whole 5^th paragraph of The Fire Sermon describes in detail the meaninglessness of sex. Line 116 talked about ‘Where dead men have lost their bones’, line 193 ‘White bodies naked on the low damp ground/ And bones cast in a little low dry garret’ painting vivid images of death in the most unholy form. The romantics would have wanted to believe that all death leads to rebirth- giving your body back to the earth helps grow flowers and such, but Eliot points out that death with war does nothing but destroy you. If you survive you are changed, unproductive sexually, emotionally etc. and if you died it was gruesome and unnecessary. 

work out

Today I took the ACT
mental workout
Then i mowed the lawn (yes i mow my lawn suck it fools)
physical workout (if you don't think that's exercise you obviously never mowed the lawn)
and then tonight is the girls night
emotionally exhausting
almost always

I am happy when i work
life is just better when you sweat

fridays are of the gods

Today has been fantastic
partly because I ditched seminary to talk to a friend for like 2 hours
ya that's probably it
less school = happier holly
always
and tonight I am going out to dinner with my parents
and the food is always good on date night
ACT tomorrow
not divine
but also girls night and I am so pumped
so pumped
let the venting and setting free of emotions begin




why yes
i am obsessed

Good

fulfilled

Exhausted. All day. My self control was tested all day and its mentally taxing. A text message isn't a big deal right? No. It is. At least at this point. I went home for lunch and it totally helped. For being a new house and for having not really adjusted, its home. Rejuvenating. After school I had piano lessons and then I went and read for an hour at the Mc Rea's ( the old folks home). It was warm and now I am physically tired. Who knew service would be so much work! But my mind is more at peace. I am such a happier person when I am busy. I came home for dinner and then I played the piano. For how little I practice, I so enjoy it. It sciences the cacophony in my mind. Very few things can do that. Jack Johnson's new album just came out and I am obsessed. I love him so much. Now I am going to play softball (lol no I am going to go sit with Shelby and catch up with her :)

Be Brave

Accept that it hurts

and then

remember why it shouldn't 

and then

find someone else's hurt to heal 

you have to

choose

 to be 

brave