Cultivate Solitude

We have such a fear of being alone
Take that fear and cultivate it
Make it work for you

Clothes

I had this theory
that if I bought a leather jacket my life would get 15642 times better.
I was right

I have also been on a hunt for the perfect flannel shirt
Not too tight but not too loose
Not too girly but not to boyish
I found it

Studded shirts bring me joy
I found a wallet that I actually like
I finally got my boots
One paycheck later and Black Friday was good to me

Good shopping requires a good buddy
One that encourages you to make the best choices
too much money, too much like your mom in style
i know you love it but it doesn't really fit you
etc.
I am lucky that most of my friends are good ones
Stacie was a lot of fun

Musings on the Mind

Wednesday I watched A Beautiful Mind (Russel Crowe) and last night I watched Inception (Leonardo DiCaprio). Basically I have had my mind blow {squared}. I had seen them both before but they are so good I still get my mind blown.
If you haven't seen them- do. They are the kinds of things where you see life differently afterwards.
A Beautiful Mind: You are in control of your own mind. My favorite line is "like a diet of the mind, I choose not to indulge in certain appetites". I love this. You are in control of your own thoughts and therefore your own destiny and happiness. YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR MIND. He has to ignore a man who he thinks is his best friend and two other extremely important people to him because eventually he comes to accept that they are not real. I am just in awe of this guy. And his wife is incredibly strong.
Inception: Dreams are frikin cool. The end. But really. Exploration of the mind has got to be one of the coolest things ever. I love what they say about ideas and how powerful they are.

Overall conclusion? Our minds are more powerful than we know. How do we unlock all of that potential?

Thankful

I am thankful for my past experiences. They have made me, shaped me, molded me into what I am today. With all of my flaws and strengths. I am thankful for the times I have cried because they have made me stronger. But also more able to be soft and relate to people.

I am grateful for my Dartmouth sweatshirt. It is warm and it was my dads- therefore I love it.

I am thankful for the people in my life that make me laugh.

I am thankful for every single person that likes my Instagram photos.

I am thankful for the people who tell me like it is. Who tell me the truth, even when it hurts.

I am thankful that I am so blessed with a great family and talents and a functional body.

I am thankful for indoor plumbing.

and hot chocolate.

Respect {among other things}

I volunteered at an old folks home today with Kelton. Its such an interesting experience going there. All 6 of the people that live there are either too old to really even communicate or have very stages of amnesia. This would all be well and good but that is my greatest fear (I think. I don't think I have lived long enough and experienced enough to say 'biggest'). I am terrified of growing old and loosing all that I am. To linger on when I no longer even remember the ones I love. To become a shell and a body, incapable of doing even the simplest tasks without assistance. So I would like to say that I enjoy reading to these people once a week, but really, it kind of terrifies me. I continue because it makes me feel good and I want to conquer my fear.

  Respect: its not something I have had a lot of.

For anyone or anything

most people go through this phase when they are like 13 right?

nope not me.

Ever realize that you don't like who you are?

Your habits? Manner of speaking and attitude?

Because I have. Its kinda painful but its good because its growth.

Right? 

Respect is good. I feel better when I have the proper amount for things and people around me. Its foolish, childish and self-centered to be disrespectful. The world does not revolve around you- nothing is personal.  

my essay: pre-hacking

When I was little, I was never in trouble for staying up late playing with toys or messing with my room- I got in trouble for staying up reading.  I read everything and read it fast but I read for fun- the first classic I ever read was Huckleberry Finn in 5^th grade and I hated it. There was no action! No love story! Just a boy and an old man on a raft! From then on I only read classics in school. Then in 9^th grade I read Jane Eyre. At first I thought it was boring but I forced myself to continue and then the story intrigued me. There was action; a mad wife locked in a tower, and a love story; the relatable Jane and the brooding Mr. Rochester- it had all the elements that my fast reading had, plus more. Jane Eyre became my favorite book. I loved that when I reread it I understood more and was able to pull apart the elements of the story. I continued to read classics for school and I grew increasingly fond of the language and metaphors which I originally thought was difficultly but in reality was the best part of novel. Then when I was a Junior I picked up Anna Karenina. I started, expecting it to be like the other classics- forced at first but then interesting once the story developed. Tolstoy was completely different- from the beginning I couldn’t put it down. Overnight my attitude toward classic literature changed. I couldn’t even bring myself to read the same fast-paced page turners I had read before. My junior year I took the AP Language Test and got a f our. Then when I took the ACT and got a 34 on the reading portion I knew what I wanted to do in college and more importantly, I couldn’t wait to do so. I am so excited when I think about how I could study something I am so passionate about.

the detail elude me

life is good
yesterday i went to the micheal buble concert with kelton
and then we got hashbrowns and hot cocoa
and tonight?
catching fire
i am now in love with frank sinatra and elvis
10 things i hate about you is now my second favorite teen movie
{the original footloose will always be #1}
basically i am kat
its cool
i really like to paint
and my paintings arent half bad
i have to get my wisdom teeth out 2 days after christmas
merry christmas
i am really excited for pie
but not for working black friday
i went to last chance for a winter formal dress today
it was crazy
i am going with brycen and very excited
as i lay dying is the weirdest book
i am kind of enjoying the insanity
i am really ready to graduate
and reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally excited for next semester
and my 1/2 day of school
its going to be so nice
neon trees
bastille
the smiths
daft punk
guns and roses
elvis
fitz and tantrums
katy perry
vampire weekend
john mayer